for my future

for the first time

ever

while *art* doesn't fit into it right now, there are plenty of holes to fill. after graduation (thankfully I can graduate thanks to my advisor signing some forms) I will probably take a year off and work or something (don't tell my parents, they seem set on making me go do the next thing right away) (to gain practical skills like waitressing! my parents think this is low class but i want some practical job skills ok!!!! service industry!!! because us starving artists types will land there eventually!!!) while getting a TEFL (which actually takes like, six weeks max) and then I will go to Hong Kong and teach english to kids because HK has the most delicious food and awesome shopping. I want longan and egg tarts and milk tea and gai dan tsai omg. I have an enormous advantage being 1) an english major 2) a native speaker 3) decently caucasian looking 4) the aforementioned TEFL certificate (teaching english as a foreign language) 5) an HK permanent ID, nixing all need for visas, so I'm really a "local" and 6) decently fluent in cantonese. and 7) i have had a month of previous experience teaching english in HK I guess you could call it

HOORAY!

I still don't have an actual passion decided. I like many things; i like learning, i like beautiful things, but that's not ... a passion that translates into anything useful ... who knows, maybe I'll REALLY ENJOY TEACHING. I know i like kids anyway and might as well make use of that stupid college degree.

After HK maybe I will do teach for america. They will have to accept me after all that experience. They rejected me this past deadline because I am a useless dummy with no leadership experience.

and maybe if teaching is nice i will teach my whole life

maybe if i develop motivation or a passion for something

idk

I say all this and here I am my last semester of college with conte crayon under my fingernails and only one english class! I'm taking painting II and figure drawing and couldn't be happier. Even though my art minor is long done with. I am also doing orchestra, lessons, chamber orchestra, and the whitworth quartet has two gigs this month even though we disbanded credit-wise last semester because they wanted funding to go towards a larger ensemble [chamber orchestra]. We are getting paid, baby! And free three-course dinner at the fancy banquet gig this saturday!! I love my quartet-mates and wish we could do this more. the second violin is kinda hot too. I wouldn't mind doing this all my life but again I have chosen the three areas that are hard to make a living off of: writing, art, and music. Brava

And um I got on to make a journal so I could link my gaiaonline account to a "$1 USD commissions" journal, so uh you can ignore my next journal. And ignore that i still have gaia. i'm part of the longest thread on the internet okay, we have over 750,000 pages of 15 posts a page. when we reach a million I'm quitting. ETA is 2-3 years. but until then I want to get something positive out of that and that positive is a few bucks drawing people's pixel avatars. woo!

But i thought it would be nice to update my unofficial fail-gallery with this.

I keep thinking about making comics more and more but I don't really do anything. well, stay tuned.

I am drawing a bit more, mostly fanart, but i don't upload them because I only do the bare minimum on them. anatomy decent? ok. done. who cares why the pose is like that or why everyone has the same expression i just wanted to draw them...so yeah, it's bad.

I hope to upload some stuff from figure drawing soon. i'm gonna put my own mug in the classroom somewhere because he provides coffee and hot chocolate (8 am class!) then i'll feel like art major owl hahahaha